Borderline Personality Disorder: how to deal with shame and anger?

First you have to remeber that it is a chemicle imbalance and you cannot control it yourself.It's just something in the brain that gets out of sequence..I could have written that same letter 25 years ago and have struggled all my life.Today at 60 years old I have finally found the answer.It is a combination of drugs that can help put you back in balance.I am slowly starting to feel like a human again.I did the paxil,and tons of others that never seemed to help draw me out of the hole but a combination of cymbalta and my new one,effexor,I can actually get up in the morning,clean house and care weather I am alive .I took care of my brain injured husband for 10 years and finally had to have him put in the nurseing home but the year before that I lost my mom who I was very close too and 2 weeks before I lost her my daughter and grandkids moved accross the country.I thought my world had ended and then I lost my mom. and finally had to put husband in the nurseing home..... so if I can survive all that and fiannaly come out on top....I feel I finally hit the write combination.Conuseling helps some but it is not you...it is imabalance and has to be treated ... so.I have been thru hell and back but at least I can say....I'm backkkkkk.Please keep trying and keep seeing your doctor and keep trying different things until you find the answer.Do you have family?I did and they suffered thru it too and one of my sons has it but has learned to treat it and is doing great.Good luck...Dar